party4u

i only threw this party for you.
which is why when we ran out of liquor
i volunteered to crawl to the store
even though i couldn’t stand without help.
and i know you’re leaving soon but
don’t you remember when you weren’t?
theres paint on all of our shit
because of the time we made self portraits
that made us so mad we ripped
them up before they could dry.
you read your first book at nineteen
and wrote your first at nineteen and a half
because you knew you could do it better.
and you did.
you held the admiration but you left me the love
that you refused to leave me without.
youre probably getting your period soon
because i cant stop crying at the thought
of a city without you in it.
ill get drunk with you. if you want me to.